January 17, 2012 Leave a comment
Kids do it all the time. They say everything that they are going to do, everything they set out to do… but nothing goes to plan.
When you’re packed with so many things running, when you finally the get the chance to take a break, you just try to catch up. But it’s only like that if the moments are brief. Not six weeks long.
I had a list of things I wanted to accomplish during the holidays (2 weeks left out of the 6) and do you know how many of them were finished?
Not even half.
It happens to everyone, especially in the Christmas holidays with their New Year resolutions or that thing people say on the last day of term, “We’ll catch up sometime”, but you know why it doesn’t happen? Because like the New Year resolution, people procrastinate. They think they have so much time that it won’t really matter if they just do nothing today.
That mindset sticks.
It is one of the reasons I detested the Christmas holidays so much as a child, it was a whole 6 weeks off of school. I thought of it as a waste of my time. Wouldn’t it be much simpler to stop school around the 20th, and start again on the first? In fact, you could give us our time tables on the 20th and we’d just go straight back into the routine.
I wish I got my timetable before the first day back, it would make my life a lot better. Students show up with no books with the excuse they didn’t know which one to bring. So stupid. And for that whole day, teachers give us slack and make us to title pages… I detest title pages. I just want to be given work, and that is why I worked until the last day of term, which I did attend.
You know, I think one of the reasons it has taken me so long to write on this again, after vowing every day and then being absent for four weeks is because of my girlfriend. She is marvelously distracting, not that she is a distraction, I prefer to think of her as a priority.
However, my time management is rather preposterous. She has been doing work experience for her university course so for the past week and a half; she leaves in the morning and returns around 5-6 in the afternoon. So I’ve been feeling rather complacent, I don’t know what to do with myself.
Although I haven’t accomplished many of the things I set out to, there are a few that I have managed to complete. I have painted for the first time in months, I have researched universities, med schools and bachelors of many different things. I have not done enough I’m afraid.
You see, with others I suppose this mood begins on the last day, that is if it occurs at all. It is the feeling of laziness. It isn’t being lazy but feeling like you have been lazy, I suppose. You feel this dread that there is so much you could have done with that time, time that you can’t even remember spending, yet you chose to watch TV and sit around all day. School is looming over you and you just don’t want to go back.
I do want to go back, but not with unfinished plans and projects. I prefer everything to be finished neatly so I can return and work. I don’t like being coddling on the first or last weeks with movies or title pages. They bore me. School should be fascinating at all times, in my opinion, which is usually is. There is though a few classes which I wished they would offer but alas, since I cannot wait until university, I have started now. I have been studying quite a few subjects in the holiday, some of which I shall continue with during the school term.
For the next two weeks, hopefully you’ll be hearing from me. I tend to do this little neurotic fit and blast through a number of tasks, increasing speed by the time I get to school.
There is one foreboding thought about school though, with the masses of people and the few friends I have… I don’t know if I’ll be able to make it through the first day back.